It's been a while since I last posted, and honestly, there has been very little time to blog, or even process my thoughts lately. It's a new beginning and a new adventure for our family. It's scary, it's exhilarating and it makes you confront your fears from the moment you make one of life's toughest decisions.
Let me explain ...
In late April, early May, it became more clear to both the Hubs and I that there may be a big, life-altering change. We both had amazing full-time jobs, the kids were well balanced and went to a wonderful school and we were living in what I called our "forever home." You can see photos
here. It was from the outside, the perfect life, but inside, it was a crazy, hot-mess. Hubs was working full time, taking the kids to school, picking them up and most of the time, feeding them dinner before I even stepped foot in the house. His career allowed for the extra family time, where my job wasn't as lenient. It quickly became very overwhelming for both Hubs and I to both have a high-level career, while balancing family life. In fact, there really wasn't family time ... at all. Here and there
maybe we would find an hour to enjoy dinner out, but between sports, school work, yard work and house cleaning ... zilch. It was so overwhelming, that Hubs and I knew something had to change. For me, the real moment of truth was when I realized I had absolutely no idea what was going on in the kids school, to the point where my son's teacher actually thought Hubs and I were not together ... I believe she said "I know you and your husband are "estranged", her words, not mine. And if that wasn't enough ... I lost my passion. The one thing where people would compliment and start up conversations about ... were no longer. The basis of my adult conversations started out all the same ... "I'm exhausted." Yes, it was time for a change.
Hubs career was really taking off, despite the extra efforts for the family thank God! And when an opportunity presented itself, we had to take a step back and really evaluate what this would mean for our family. With little hesitation, we decided to move forward and continue considering a change ... a BIG Move in fact. One that would take us away from family, friends and everything that we have known for 26+ years.
With VERY little to go on, except for dreams, the opportunity for a better life for our children and the desire to make it on our own, Hubs and I packed up our car, the kids and both dogs, and left our beautiful "forever home," and headed for the big state of TEXAS. It still doesn't seem real. We have been here for exactly one week so far, and everything is different. I find myself comparing Texas and Missouri A LOT, however, here, there are endless of opportunities. We are in a great city called Frisco, which is just North of Dallas. The Restaurants, Shopping and Entertainment has been insane, almost overwhelming ... but in a good way.
I haven't even minded that much that I am currently living in a tiny apartment with only about 4% of the items I own ... SCARY. What's even scarier ... I left with only 8 pairs of shoes ... what was I thinking?!?
Eventually we'll buy or build here in this great city, and I am SO excited about loading up the truck and REALLY making the long trip with all of our positions to a house that I can then call home.
It feels good to be back. I wanted to post this last week, but I needed some time ... some space ... and some serious self-thought. I had been overworked for a while, and although I still feel exhausted, I am excited to get back to myself again ... the dreamer, DIY'er, creator and go-getter. I am excited to be "MOM" again, and from what I can gather, everyone is happier when I am at home taking care of my family. When I'm not home, you can find me continuing weddings and and meeting amazing women who I can share the joys and accomplishments that I endure with Stella & Dot!
If this is the first time or the hundredth time you have found yourself here ... I invite you to come along with me as our journey continues!
